Each High Holiday, i prepare my home ( makom ) within and within my home as I step into High Holiday's. This year I felt a calling to step outside of Toronto and travel to Ottawa to meet a new community. Outside beyond the ideas of wrong-doing and right-doing there is a field I will meet myself there has been my prayer this summer to support me. I have left my role as Baylit tekiyah and my committee work. This high holiday i want to listen to the call of the shofar and as I have been sounding for myself I am hearing closely. Tomorrow I leave and drive on the 401 to Ottawa. I am seeking and looking for a space to be, to pray and commune with the divine, meet new people and listen to each others stories while i sit in my own narrative. I am in deep grief of letting my community go, because of what I could not step into last year. I gave up myself totally. I listened to others and melded myself into their ways. I want to build a new community for myself based upon no past herstory, presence and an opportunity to share with boundaries. There will be noone looming over me to make discernments. I will offer myself a way into me differently while holding me in sacred space.
Sheri Ahava Cohen
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